I have sero-negative RA. I have had symptoms since I was a teen, at least as far as I can remember, and I have always just put up with it and pushed through. In my culture, you don’t talk about negative things. You don’t talk about illness, and if you do, you’re succumbing to it. I have believed I should just exercise through it and eat salads, and that has worked….and whenever I worried, I would go get blood tests done and they were all negative, so, I always thought it was in my head… until I couldn’t walk this Summer. One of my knees swelled up so big that I couldn’t push through… I just graduated nursing school, I was supposed to finally start my career now that my kids are in school, but I spent the last few months disabled, and being told to quit acting disabled, and, every so often, I wonder if I am just making it up… it stops feeling so bad. So, I leave my cane at home and I walk around the grocery store like I used to, and then I am full of regret. I had a bad reaction to Plaquenil, so I have just started Methotrexate. I am trying to get a job, but I don’t know what kind of job to get. We were supposed to get a house, but I suppose I can’t get one with stairs now, right? I was a pretty active person, and now I can’t keep up. I get so tired. I just wish I knew if this is how it’s going to be from now on, or if it’s going to get better. I wish I knew what life style to expect and accept.