I greatly appreciate any and information offered. Being diagnosed with RA has been a trying and difficult thing for me. I have always been the go to person and have had difficulty not only saying no, but also trying to explain why I have to say no. My own daughter said "what's wrong with you?, you need to snap out of this!, the old you would be working two jobs getting things done. " I was at a loss for words and that one statement sent my mind into deeper depression, because yes that's what my old self would've done. It wasn't until she seen me dropping things because of no grip from swollen fingers. Witnessing not being able to keep up my host skills at a dinner I planned. Not jumping up to clean and refill cups or seconds for kids. I could see and feel her staring in disbelief of how I could no longer do the simplest things. At one point which all my children know, I traveled 45miles to take 17 hrs. a semester for college, while being a single parent of three with two jobs. My anxiety of failure made me overachieve. Now it seems as if it was all in vein. If someone said I couldn't, I would just to prove I could.
I am not used to asking for help for anything, much less not being able to pay for things myself. I've done so much research trying to figure myself out that I've actually just lost around 8months without even realizing the amount of time I've neglected to care for or actually even been able to focus on any type of paperwork for help or disability. Thank you for the leads and tips. Reading people's stories has also helped me understand there is a reason, my eyes are dry, my skin is dry, why my legs and ankles are so swollen, and the brain fog people talk about is real.
Now I need to concentrate and get motivated to actually seek help. One reason of delay is due to being in the health field myself in a small town. I need MHMR service and help with RA and know everyone who works at these places so I was even considering a different town for doing this.