Hi there.
I totally understand how you feel.
I chose to stop the disease modifying drugs for the same reasons! Approximately 6yrs ago.
Methotrexate Metaject Salfasalazine Leflunimide etc. The side effects of these potently poisonous drugs made me look & feel worse than the actual disease! Not just in & on my body but my mental health suffered alongside the horrific side effects and constantly ill &/or in hospital!
RA is painful & exhausting etc enough(I dont need to explain that) so along with all the other immune disorders that run alongside RA & all the reactions I was getting, I felt I needed to stop them and change my life!
I felt like a human guinea-pig....
I stopped eating dairy products, stopped all intake of alcohol, I eat well & take cbd/thc & normal top up pain killers to manage my everyday symptoms. I try and stay active in &1 around my home and garden.
I've felt much more alive & healthier & happier ever since. However research and slowly does it!
Stay safe and positive my warrior people 😀
Good luck. 😀 x