I was diagnosed about 10 years ago. I went to the doctor because all of a sudden I couldn't get off the couch and walk. With pills and treatment it was completely manageable. I moved back home to Pennsylvania in 2009 and stupidly thought I am fine. I don't think I have RA, I am going to the gym everyday, walking over 4 miles on the treadmill, life is great. Then things changed. I haven't sat on a couch to watch a movie in over 4 years. My leg pain is thru the roof, car trips??? are you crazy? Then I started dropping everything and my hands wouldn't work. The muscle spasms in my back (which I have had all my life) have gotten severe. When they hit I can't even get out of bed. My life has definitely changed in 5 short years. I was telling my RA doc about all the leg pain and no one can find a cause, that sitting is getting very hard. He ordered x-rays of my back and pelvis. In between the x-rays and my next RA appointment I got hit with another spasm. (Lost a week of work and no more sick time...ugh). We have found severe arthritis and damage in my SI (Sacroiliac) joint. It connects the spine to the tailbone. And the culprit to my excruciating leg pain. I am having problems wearing shoes because my left toes are killing me, left thumb hasn't bent in 4 months, it is completely locked and the right one is right behind it. For the past 18 months I have found myself constantly calling my doc and asking for pain pill refills. I feel like a drug addict. So far no meds are working. I have gone thru methotrexate (my liver didn't like it) another pill my liver did not like, 6 months of Enbrel with no results. Now I am trying weekly shots of Actemra, daily pills of Plaquanill (sorry don't know how to spell it) and he just gave me a new script for Celebrex. I do not sleep well (Heck, I can't even get out of a chair without moaning in pain). I don't take pain pills during the day at work or anything like that. But weekends and nights, I have come to depend on them. I take a ton of aspirin and ibuprofen that do not work all week long. My doctor only prescribes 30 pills so I am constantly calling in for a refill. Is this normal? Am I wrong in looking forward to the relief they bring? I don't know, I feel like I have to go without them for a week or two to justify asking for more. Anyone else out there feel the same?