Memory Loss

I have, for more than a decade now, been plagued w material memory loss - or so I thought.
Over the period I did two deep dives into neuropsychiatry. What’s wrong w my brain?
Yes, I LCW gad four little strokes (TIAs?) and one big one. Now strokes are a worry because Achtar jacks up my BP - this morning Systolic, again, broke 200.
After a recent round of cognit in Fe evaluations…I was, again told “nothing is wrong. You’re fine.” Never mind I had no memory of doing a four cognition test previously.
One day, on the phone w a colleague, he mentioned, after a conference call, that it seemed I hadn’t been listening well. I replied quickly (no filter)…”Let’s say someone hit you in the back w a baseball bat. How well would you be listening?” That is an accurate description of the disease being in my upper back and severe something or other w C4 and C5.
It took a bit, I’m slow…but I realized that I do not face memory problems. Much of the time someone is talking to me and…
1. I am in screaming and not listening af all…just waiting until I can get out of the conversation .
2. I have taken a load of pain meds and, likewise, can’t really listen.

So, if you think you have cognitive deficits - it might just be that you can’t stand any input…exhausted from pain…drowsy from meds.
Just a thought.
I am 70…so, yes, I am in the kitchen and have no idea why…have to separate the two. 😂