Imagination Station

Imagination Station

You know how sometimes someone’s stomach hurts after a meal. The more you think about it the more certain you become that it’s the cause of food poisoning, then you start to feel ill? Also, when you see someone vomit all of a sudden you get supremely nauseous as well?

Have you ever wanted something so much that it came true? Made a wish on a shooting star or at 11:11 (make a wish!)? I have! And, occasionally those things did come true!

One of the biggest lessons my father ever taught me was that as a human being I had the ability to get better. I could suck royally at something yet, with a little patience and work I could become a master.

Mind over matter.

I learned if I thought I could, I could. No argument.

I find myself constantly willing my Rheumatoid Disease away; especially on the days I hurt most. I sit, as though I am meditating, and just think really really hard that I am completely able-bodied. Does it work? Sometimes! Actually, probably not, but I sometimes convince myself it does!

Am I alone in thinking this? I don’t know if I’m just super naïve and honestly believe I can make myself go into remission or whether I’m just dumb (it could very well be a bit of both or more of the latter, heh).

In recent articles, I’ve written about pushing my limits, not asking for help and overall trying to ignore my disease and push forward like everything is hunky dory. There is a huge part of me that just can’t accept my new normal. Why is it so difficult for me? Is it because I am sero-negative so there is always that seed of self-doubt? Is it because I am too stubborn for words?

I spend a good portion of my day willing the RA away and of course, it never works. I’m like a tick that even after totally filling up with blood from the host, continues to feed past its limit (I found a tick on my dog the other day so that’s where that random analogy comes from).

The role of stress

Stress plays a major trigger in my RA symptoms. Stress is an emotion, one I can control by different outlets. A positive outlook on life generally means a bunch of good things follow. Same goes for a bad mood. If I keep a calm demeanor everyone follows suit. If I can control all these circumstances with just my mind why can’t I just think my Rheumatoid Arthritis away?

I mean, as it goes, and this will probably get placed in the “Monica, you’re an idiot” category” but even while in flare I push myself. I feel the strain, I feel the possible repercussions but I still fight. My body is screaming back at me, telling me to stop but I don’t listen. And then, guess what? I’m okay afterwards, even the next day.

So, is there something to mind over matter? Can I telekinesis my symptoms away?

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  • pugpen
    4 months ago

    Monica, I sometimes do the same things: thinking that maybe I have the power to ‘will myself well’ & thinking that if I only ignore these same ‘ol same ‘ol symptoms that the pain/stiffness will go away—I think it’s good to challenge ourselves. The power of distraction! I have a real aversion to sitting, I WANT to be busy, I need to be busy & it’s what makes me feel better (mentally). It’s just that someday’s that feeling of accomplishment sometimes takes longer to achieve. Referring to those days when my “job’s” at hand have to be completed in short segment’s (alternated with rest periods) versus being able to just “get ‘er done” all at once. But, ya know, that’s OK, you have to make it ‘ok’ in your mind. To me, it doesn’t matter that it may take me all day to meet my daily goal’s instead of all at once. What does matter to me is that I CAN still accomplish what I set out to do. Setting the right pace is what it’s all about (for me). This disease, RA, is what it is. And once I accepted it & my limitations and then actually figured out how exactly to accomplish what I can reasonably do in a day, then it becomes second nature. God brought me to this and He’s helping me each and every day to get thru it. Having dream’s and aspiration’s can be so motivating! Even after all these year’s and all the different med’s I’ve been on and failed I still dream of ‘THE’ RX that’s going to be the one that is going to put me in remission. I’m scheduled to start Rituxin in a couple of weeks, and who know’s?! Maybe I’ll be able to return to work, (at age 65) but maybe….?!

  • Monica Y. Sengupta moderator author
    4 months ago

    Hey @kwsfsw!! Thank you so much for absolutely lovely comment!! Your kind words just put me in a great mood starting out my day!

    I love your positive attitude and thank you for the reminder that it’s okay I’m not on the go all the time. I need to listen to my body and it’s okay that I go at a different pace than before. Achievements are still achievements no matter the time frame and I should be proud of myself no matter what!

    I really hope the Rituxin works!! Please keep me updated on it and how you feel! Thanks again 🙂 ~Monica

  • Mary Sophia Hawks moderator
    4 months ago

    Monica,
    What a thought-provoking article! I think it’s great that you can push yourself, even during a flare, and not have repercussions.
    I am no longer able to do that. If I push, I suffer for much longer.
    Each of us face our RA differently, because we are all unique. I am a positive person also, and I use my positivity to remind myself that the flare will end. If what you are doing works for you, then keep doing it. RA is all about adapting. As you continue on your journey, be open to being flexible. I wish you all the best!
    MS

  • Monica Y. Sengupta moderator author
    4 months ago

    Hey MS @c7mv96!! Thank you so much for commenting on my article!!

    Like you, as I continue on this journey, I’m becoming more comfortable knowing I can’t push myself the way I did when I was younger. I really wish I could but like you said, I have to adapt and be kind to my body.

    Thanks again for commenting on my article!! I always appreciate it! ~Monica

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