"I hurt.... Hips, back, shoulders, knees, ankles, wrists, hands, neck... I am stiff, I am unsteady, no stamina and EXHAUSTED. This is a normal day doing absolutely nothing.
Then, I went to lunch with a friend and back home... I am everything above but add that I am on fire! Luckily I have a lot of icepacks..currently all over my body..
RA sucks! Before I had all the stamina in the world. I actually would work all day and come home and clear my property - chainsaw down many trees .. cut them down even smaller, add to a burn pile, .. then shower, cook dinner, clean up kitchen, all while doing laundry, helping my son with homework, etc.. etc..
Huge difference...
I feel like I am dead - but alive enough to feel the death.
Sometimes even wishing I was..
I still have my son, my friends and family to spend time with
- when I can - which is not as often as I wish I could but they understand my body & I are at war and nothing in my day to day life can be planned.
Spontaneous it is..when I feel good I RUN with it..
-sigh-"