My RA Journey. Feeling Depressed.

Hello everyone. I was diagnosed at age 54. This disease reared its ugly head one morning. I was awakened with this fiery pain in my wrists and hands. Multiple trips to Emergency Rooms did nothing as they treated me like an opioid seeker. Was so humiliating.

MY Orthopedist listened to my woes without judgement. He immediately tested me for Rheumatoid factor, Sed Rate, Creatin Bun Ratio and CRP?. I was positive for everything.

Fast forward 2 years. I've tried Methotrexate, Humera, Xeljanz and Sulphaserizide. All worked about 4 months.

I am to start Remicade Infusions on Thursday. I am so scared. Thru the nurse taking her time getting insurance and me not allowed to take any RA meds thus past month, i am in tremendous pain. Flares in Shoulders, wrists, hands and hips. Also feeling like I have the flu.

I complain so much to my family to the point they just tolerate my complaints. I DO NOT BLAME THEM. I hate this so much.

I don't know how much more I can handle. I want to give up So tired of this intense pain.

The doctor out me on 40mg of prednisone daily until infusions start. I am afraid that damaging my body. ,Also terrified of infusions

I AM SO SORRY TO WRITE THIS LONG LETTER. I just someone who understands.

Thank You

Sandra

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