Oh my heart goes out to you, ! How frustrating and challenging that you experienced the dismissal of your symptoms and pain from your mother. I can only imagine how that would impact a person, both emotionally and physically. You are definitely not alone in having symptoms as a child. Several of our community members (as well as health leaders) were diagnosed with RA as children.
Unfortunately, good days and bad days are part of living with RA. I know a lot of people here can relate to the ups and downs of bad days, and not-so-bad days. Also, your frustrations on getting medication to help with pain is one that is not lost on the community here. It can be very hard to get doctors to agree to (or approve) pain medications, you're not alone. Some of our community members have had some success in managing their pain with a pain management specialist. I'm not sure if you've yet seen this type of doctor, but perhaps it would be an option for you? I'm sharing a link to an article with more information, https://rheumatoidarthritis.net/living/pain-management-specialist.
I can hear how difficult it has been for you throughout the years, especially not being able to hold your baby for almost two years! Please know that this community is here for you! Sending you gentle hugs. -- Warmly, Christine (Team Member)