Hi . Your reluctance and your fear are both understandable and justified. No one has any way of knowing whether infusions will help you. Everyone reacts differently to these medications so it is a game of trial and error. Ultimately, only you can decide whether this is something you want to go ahead with. One the one hand, it might slow your progress and alleviate some of your current symptoms, giving you a better quality of life now and in the future. On the other hand, it might not. You might see no improvement, and then suffer serious side effects from the medication. Know that if you decide to go ahead with the infusions, you can stop any time. It's not a long-term commitment. I would not try to compare your experiences with methotrexate and prednisone with anything else though. Methotrexate is the first drug doctors prescribe because it is inexpensive and most insurance companies require that you try it first, but it can come with some awful side effects. Prednisone is not intended as a long-term solution and can cause serious problems if it is used long-term. It should be used only to bring symptoms under control. Your experience with Rinvoq would be more comparable, though you should keep in mind that your reaction to each biologic will usually be different. I understand wanting a break from doctors, but keep in mind that a break could cost you your SSDI. If you decided to stop seeing your doctor, you might want to research the impact on your future with SSDI first. You can always tell your doctor that you want to come off medications, but that you want to remain a patient for the sake of yearly evaluations and in case you need alternative/complimentary treatments, such as physical therapy, down the line. I hope this helps and that you are able to reach a decision that leaves you satisfied. Treatment fatigue is super common among people with chronic illnesses. You are not alone. We are here whenever you need us. Best wishes. - Lori (Team Member)