My doc wants to start me on infusions, but my bloodwork is almost totally normal. Granted I feel like crap, horrible fatigue and I do have inflammation in hands and feet, but I am scared quite frankly, having tried so many pills over the years, methotrexate, Rinvoq, prednisone always made me feel better, now I have stomach troubles that started last time I did prednisone and the rinvoq. Honestly I don't trust doctors anymore they treat me like I'm a head case and I'm paranoid that they might be pushing the infusions as a way to shut me up. I'm ready to stop complaining at all, if I could take Tylenol, I would just take it, it would help. I'm afraid if I say I don't feel comfortable doing infusions ( I already agreed to it, and it got approved), that they will feel I'm uncooperative. I even want to stop testing bloodwork, and take a break from doctors for a couple of years, 20+ years now, SSDI. I feel trapped