All alone

Hi,my name is latisha and i was diagnosed with ra when is was 26. Now that I'm 41 it's much harder to do the daily stuff. I just finally got my health insurance back after a year without any medicine. So it's even tougher. I am married but my husband the love of my life is incarcerated and I'm out here trying to make it with out him
He is a great support but in the end I'm all on my own. I dont think he really understand the amount of pain i have in a day. He wants me to keep pushing myself to do more each day. I know he means well.I work a full time job as a certified nurse assistant and I don't get paid very vmuch so everyday is a struggle to get up and get going if I don't work I can't make my bills. I'm just really lost, frustrated, tired and tired of being sick. I could always take care of myself now I live with my husband's grandparents and they are a great help as far as a place to live but can't help much more there 85 and 86 there self.