Time to choose Rituxan?
7 years of symptoms and 5 years after my RD diagnosis. Three rheumatologists. Mayo Clinic consult.
Prednisone, methotrexate, azothiaprine, Arava, Humira, Enbrel, Remicade, Orencia, Actemra, Xeljanz.
Early retirement. Physical therapy. Counseling. Joint injections. Rotator cuff repair. Root canals and a dental extraction. Obesity. Poor mobility. FATIGUE.
Somehow, I have little evidence of permanent joint damage and experienced very few negative drug side effects. So, I guess I’m lucky?
I’m typically an optimist. But today I left my rheumatology appointment a little depressed. The RD is escalating. And it’s time to consider Rituxan.
Rituxan - the impression I had is that it’s the drug for when things are Bad and you’re running out of choices. It’s the one, until vaccines and Evusheld, that should be avoided during a pandemic. Unlike other biologics that attack specific parts of the immune system, it is more broad, destroys B cells and attacks the overall ability to make antibodies.
I cruised the web and our website here and saw similar histories to mine. And I read some success stories. I spoke with a family member that uses Rituxan in transplant medicine who feels it’s a good choice for me. I learned about “infusion reactions”. My Rheum had mentioned the “aggressive nature” of my RD and this possible switch at my last appointment. So I was ready to talk about it today.
What I wasn’t ready for today was the physical exam. I’m always a little surprised when a doctor sees my symptoms clearly. That’s the legacy from the first Rheum who told me “I disagree with your symptoms”. (Why does she still affect me after 5 years with a doctor who sees and treats me well?) Today’s exam started with noting my face is beginning to puff up from steroids and acknowledging my complaint about my weight. And then the joint exam showing active disease in my shoulders, elbows, wrists, hands, hips, knees, ankles and feet. My Rheum’s recommendation - time to start Rituxan. And I agree.
I’ve given up too much to this disease to not fight harder. After learning more about Rituxan, I do have some worries about infection and I don’t look forward to the first infusion. It seems it causes the most discomfort. But, honestly, what I’m most scared of? Easy question. What if it doesn’t work?
I’m taking this afternoon to take a nap, process and feel a little sorry for myself. But, as I said, I am an optimist. I expect to wake up tomorrow ready to fight harder. I’ll start looking forward to and getting impatient for the PreAuthorization to go through. And then I’ll begin to feel new hope as the first treatment nears.
My niece once told me, “That RA business, Aunty, is no joke.” My girl was right.