Hey Tamara I just want to add after thirty years of RA and cancer caused by the RA (they think) I certainly know what it’s like to fight the numbers and when you are in the thick of things it always feels like it’s never going to get better, at least for me, and then I get those thoughts like “what if I have to live like this forever?” Well, I’m happy to say that, at least in my case, that has never happened, it always seems to come back to normal, or “normal,” at least. Hanging in there is the toughest part of this illness, and sometimes you have to hang in for a while but as Erin said just remember you are not alone!! Keep on keepin’ on, DPM