Hi KatTang!
I am a fellow RN and I hurt for you. What I have done in my career is adapt as I go. There are 2 paths you can follow. 1) Since you are currently working in a hospital, you would have a good chance of obtaining social security disability. 2) Because you mention wanting to work and give, you might want to adapt as you go.
2 is the route I chose. I first switched to Home health care. (Not infusion therapy). The next switch was to case management. I tried telephone triage for a while, but it was too fast paced and the typing was hard on my hands. The next switch was to public health. That worked well. I do not recommend school nursing---I ended up with a flare that put me on short-term disability for 4 months.
I have been working for 8 years as a faith community(parish) nurse at a local church. It is my favorite job in almost 34 years of nursing. Some positions pay, some do not. I am fortunate that mine does. I spend much time in visits, consults, referrals, and education. The church has been very understanding of my medical conditions and allowed me to flex time as needed.
I wish you all the best in your search.
Gentle hugs and blessings.
Mary Sophia Hawks, moderator/author