I hate my body

I went to a foot dr and he said there’s nothing you can do I started crying I had slippers on it was the end of summer I was crying because I couldn’t wear shoes anymore and winter was coming the deformity was so bad it took 4 surgeries in which I couldn’t stand on my foot for 8 weeks I broke my wrist in 3 places from using a walker they put metal in my feet and now the bones are pushing the metal out of the skin I can’t talk about it anymore I’m disgusted with all the meds and nothing really works