Depressed

That sounds really tough, especially after being out of work for so long and dealing with RA on top of it. It makes sense that your mental health would start to feel the weight of that, because having no routine or sense of purpose day to day can really wear on you. But there are most certainly things you can do. You could start really small with things like occasional volunteer work or simple jobs or task that do not tie you to a strict schedule. Even just adding a bit more rhythm to your days at home can help too. For example, having a set time to wake up, planning one small thing in the morning like a short walk, a bit of reading, or even tidying one area, then leaving the afternoon for rest or low energy activities. Some people also like to schedule simple things like a regular coffee break, a TV show they only watch at a certain time, or a short check in with a friend so the day has a few steady points to look forward to. It does not have to be anything formal or work related at first. Even small bits of structure like that can make the days feel less repetitive and a bit more manageable without putting extra pressure on your body. I also want to share with you an article that gives some ways you can manage the depression if your interested in treatment options. You can check it out here- https://rheumatoidarthritis.net/symptoms/depression-anxiety-and-emotional-problems. And if need be, I highly encourage that you mention how your feeling to your doctor. They may offer options for you as well. All in all, you’re not alone and many people experience the lows that come with living with RA. Just know we’re here for any support you may need in the process. All the best, Latoya (Team Member)

Thanks very much for getting back to me

Hi . I completely get your question/issue. My wife, Kelly Mack (a contributor here), had to take disability retirement a little over a year ago. She struggled with wanting to feel her time had value and purpose - and this was only one year.
There have been the general things for herself, like exercising to maintain her abilities and reading and educating herself on new things. Besides these things she has gotten more involved in disability advocacy (she has used a wheelchair since childhood). That said, for you, that thing can be whatever would give you some purpose or enjoyment in the now. Whether it be learning something new, like a language or about a culture. My father-in-law loves to garden and got into genealogy. My friend and fellow contributor here, Dan, acts, plays video games, and knows enough about computers to probably be dangerous. My point in mentioning all of these things is for you to do you and explore just what might provide that spark. Don't hesitate to explore try new things and if something isn't for you be willing to say o.k. and find the next thing.
I know I may be making it sound easy, but that is not my intent - I've seen that it is not. I had a career that was also pretty much a passion and had it ripped away. I can tell you that for a while I didn't always handle it very well. The fact that you are here sharing this and recognizing the need to find these things to give you drive, interest and passion is a big step and shows that you are ready. I had to find a new purpose and I've seen plenty of others also find new directions. Please feel free to keep us posted on how you are doing and to reach out with questions - this is a great community that will be there for you. Best, Richard (Team Member)